There seems to come times where one will think of thoughts that pertain to ones life, and his/her particular place in it. How the days go by and seems to just pile up as days past. It's nice to find things, memories of the past, present, what could be found. Who knows whats to come, all we know is what has been, what we may long for. I find in my own life, things I miss dearly, things Ive given up for... what, monetary gains? Whats money to me besides a thing for paying my bills. All I have ever sought is plain happiness. Simple. Complications have downfalls, music sets the tones. Inebriants set the moods, I think I just made up that word. I find that I am happy, but yet discontent. deep bugs tick me. I don't know what is right and wrong, what to do, how to take the high road. Or what is right for me? I haven't lived long enough to surely know the best way to go about my questions. I think I should find my peace with what I have and I should be happy. Perhaps it is a childish thing to seek the past joys. Perhaps I should move on and find new loves. Then again when I become old, only then will I really know the truth to what I think I may know. Or then again, I could never know, after even a lifetime of actions. The truly lucky don't trouble themselves with thoughts of questions, but find in their knowledge the understanding to see the truths in being. We all have time, so much time. Only so much time. We all get so long here, then its off to whatever you think may be. If we knew what time it was for us, would be act differently? Who knows, I sure don't. I just try and see the world as it is, a place for living and trying to do what we wish to do with the time we have. If you seek greatness, or great things, you can do that. I choose to seek nothing. For one who seeks nothing, has found everything... heh, I thought that one up all on my own. We never seem to be happy, there is always something else or something more compelling us onward, contentment is priceless. The more I have learned in life has taught me that I know nothing, Human society as a whole knows nothing. This planet and all its creatures are very fragile, how easy it is for this universe to wipe it all away. Mass extinctions have occurred before, and can easily happen again. We just choose to shun death and "the end", humans have long sought to form and create forms of everlasting life. But... in this particular universe, nothing is everlasting. Only Hydrogen and Helium are naturally occurring, and they make stars, then stars burn, burning till they reach iron, then supernova. Etc, etc. I won't bore you with science, but you and I are made of super novas, the element carbon is only created though super novas. I see people, and I think I may be crazy. Almost as if I know too much for my own good. I find no need to tell others how I feel, this reading is all optional. And if you have read to here, well I don't know if I should thank you or feel sorry for you. All this writing is just therapy for me, not doctor prescribed, but I enjoy it. I just search and hold dear simple happiness. And maybe just maybe through my crazy writing you can too.
